Okay, I love you guys. I’m sorry. I’ll try to not live my human life versus cyber life… haha, yeahhhh… no. So much shit to catch up on. I’ll just list it in paragraphs:
I have a fuck buddy, who used to be a prospective boyfriend before I figured out how much of an asshole he is; a girl has her needs too, so I’m handling. He’s nothing special, though I did fall into a possible puddle of feelings— I wanted to go over to just cuddle. You can’t cuddle with fuck buddies. That’s the first No-No. You can’t get close. So I fell a little, but I’m catching myself. It’s not that I like him, really. I like the company. It just feels really nice; the attention. Of course, I know, I can get better attention from someone who is actually better, but for the moment I have a F.B. If I guy rolls around, you know, a worthy one (OHHHHHHHHH! [that was the background audience]) then drop drop he goes and hel-lo to the new guy. (At the end of the day, I would like to be loved though. But shhh..)
I love CD making!!!! I have 2 sex CDs, chill rap, Cali rap, 2 liquid dubstep, 2 house, mmmm… I need a nice Frank Sinatra based one, maybe big band and swing, an instrumental one, gahhhh… MAYBE a country one. It’s so fun to compile songs :)
I lost weight!! Dropped roughly 10 lbs. Gym and stopped eating a shit ton. I feel good! I look better, too. I mean, you should have confidence in yourself no matter what size you are, but when the jiggling of your ass continues no more just from walking… yeah, it feels nice. I bike all the time. Drip sweat. No fucks given! Love it 8] I just love feeling strong, it’s very empowering.
School, a loan, and now I’m debating of going back because I might want to build a business. I COULD go back to take a few business classes, but I have a good feeling about this idea (my friend came up with it) and I really want to take it head on. I’m so excited! I love being enthused :) Life is meant to be exciting all the time, even when it’s crappy then you must make it interesting. You’re supposed to enjoy this time, the time of living. Everything is meant for a certain time in your life, you just have to catch the whisper when it’s the closest to your ear.Be beautiful :]